my poems

Pain inside
(Introduction to Arik)



Deep with in the recesses
Of my tainted mind
There is a being
he hides in the darkness
In the shadows
he sits and waits
waits till I cant take it any more
Till he can burst out
then it is him...it is me
I am the shade dweller
I died long ago
It has been him
For as long as we can remember
living within the night
Born of hatred
He is now free
you cant stand us
But you know him
He still hides
and he hides himself well
Hearing and seeing all that we do
noting who is worthy of speaking to us
letting them all pass
for now…
when he strikes you will feel the blow
you will feel the poison
Coursing through your weak veins
sink to the very depths
Of your heart and mind
slipping in to every crevice
Of your body it then starts to burn
it doesn’t burn your flesh
But your thoughts
The essence of you
you feel it rip
In to your bones
just then is when you realize
it hasnt even started
this is but the beginning
The worst is yet to come
because you know we arent leaving
I am here to stay and it WILL change
you WILL show me respect
You WILL practically be bowing at my feet
Begging to end it
but I will keep you here
Until I am finished
I give no regard to your feelings
just look in to my eyes...deeply
you will see him there
Now you can never look away
-Arik

Ending
(The second coming
Of Arik)


Every one has their own demons
Some believe in the spawn of Satan
For some it is in the form of drugs
Or the hate of your family
But they always seem to forget
That these “demons” are all swelling inside
Waiting to be released
They wish to control your every move
They are waiting for you to fail
So they may have control again
Your birth was their death
But The Darkness will rise once more
At the end
when you draw your last breath
Then will you realize that they have won
You will know you should not have given up
Now you must stay
We will take every thing
Love
They will give you boiling hate
Contact
You get a barren wasteland
Light
Receive the deepest black of space
Freedom
And I will laugh
-Arik

Awaiting Eternity
(Questioning)



What is the point of even trying?
You can never get any where
Everything you want is eventually taken away
Is it worth the pain?
The agony of your life ripped from your body?
Living out your whole life trying and hoping
Just to have it all end with no point
There is no Heaven, nor a Hell
Life is the only thing if you’re happy
Then that is your heaven
If not then you are stuck in a terrible fate
“There is nothing in this world worth believing in”
What is the point of prolonging life if you can’t stand what you’re living now
If something happened to you
To make every moment a test on will to live
Would YOU want to live like this?
What if you’re not the one for the one for you?
Is there a reason to keep going…
If there is no love for you?
If anytime you love they find some one else
It is useless to try and find happiness
There is nothing left in this world
Everything is dried up and starting to rot
Just end it now
You are not wanted here anyway
You feel it inside
The hate that is swelling up
Now or Later it will all end why go through the pain
If it is all for naught?
-Arik